30 Days. 30 Photographs.

I've seen this on quite a few peoples blogs and thought itd be fun to do to look back on my life someday and see this :)

Day 01- A picture of yourself with fifteen facts.
Day 02- A picture of you and the person you have been close with for awhile.
Day 03- A picture of the cast from you favorite show.
Day 04- A picture of your night.
Day 05- A picture of your favorite memory.
Day 06- A picture of a person you'd love to trade places with.
Day 07- A picture of your most treasured item.
Day 08- A picture that makes you laugh.
Day 09- A picture of a person that has gotten you through the most.
Day 10- A picture of the person you do the most adventurous things with.
Day 11- A picture of something you hate.
Day 12- A picture of something you love.
Day 13- A picture of your band or artist.
Day 14- A picture of someone you could never imagine your life without.
Day 15- A picture of something you want to do before you die.
Day 16- A picture of someone who inspires you.
Day 17- A picture of something that has made a huge impact on your life recently.
Day 18- A picture of your biggest insecurity.
Day 19- A picture of you when you were little.
Day 20- A picture of somewhere you'd love to travel.
Day 21- A picture of something you wish you could forget.
Day 22- A picture of something you wish you were better at.
Day 23- A picture of your favorite book.
Day 24- A picture of something you wish you could change.
Day 25-A picture of your day.
Day 26- A picture of something that means alot to you.
Day 27- A picture of yourself and a family member.
Day 28- A picture of something your afraid of.
Day 29- A picture that can always make you smile.
Day 30- A picture of someone you miss.



Day 01- A picture of yourself with 15 facts.



1- I have a food OCD. I don't think this fact will ever change. It is much more manageable but it is still there.

2- I own a pair of grayish wedges. I feel the prettiest when I am wearing them.

3- I had a co-worker measure me with his measuring tape the other day and I am officially 5'2. Miracles do happen I grew an inch since highschool.

4- I get a high when I am doing retail therapy.

5- I haven't drank soda in almost 3 years. Yes I am always tired.

6- I may or may not secretly love celebrity gossip.

7- I believe in romance and fairytales.

8- I will use a calculator for anything. I really despise math.

9- I love manual cars. (Only when im not in traffic).

10- I hate cleaning my car. I pay my sister Alyssa in gifts or money to do it for me.

11- Im a book nerd.

12- I love to go for walks but it is like pulling teeth to get anyone to go with me though.

13- I've become a clean freak. You should see my room the past 21 years of my life compared to now...AMAZING.

14- I wear cardigans year round. To say im hot during the summer is an understatement, but their so darn comfy.

15- I strive for stability and change all at once. I love knowing I have something to wake up for but love that each day brings a new challenge.

Im not Perfect

I know I have spent far too long using the excuse I am not perfect.
Not only has this been a hard couple of years. I am still learning.
I am learning to find myself all over again after going through life changing experiences.
I know I have been in a rut trying to figure out life. My direction. What I wanted to happen.
I chose Positiveness.
The next day after making this not so life altering decision I slept through my alarm clock.
My car decided to not start. I was late for work and fearing the worst.
My boss is a quiet man and I never know if i am pleasing or disappointing.
I was on edge all morning letting my imagination run wild about my boss getting upset. Co-workers making fun of me for being late and worrying about my day being thrown off.
I was waiting. waiting some more. even more waiting for it all to fall apart.
I knew it would.
No.
It never happened.
It never happened because I realized I was the one putting those pressures on myself.
I felt so silly. So ridiculously silly.
I choose to be positive.
Life will continue to happen good bad wonderfully ugly. It will happen.
How immature of me to sit and wait for life to fall apart when my day was not perfect.
I was the one being negative while life went on with out me.
My boss smiled and waved at me pulling in. My co-workers never mentioned me being late.
That day every song I loved was played back to back on the radio. I found a wonderful blog about being happy woman.
I chose to be happy.
It was a great day.

"Look Not Behind Thee"

I haven't blogged in a really long time. I lost interest and will probably loose interest again but this being a new year I felt the need the need to blog about something special to me. This post and blog is for ME and I need to remember that. As I was getting ready for church today I came upon a video on lds.org. "Look Not Behind Thee" In light of the new year the church made a video on what that means to people. Asking if they knew bout Lots wife and why that saying was used. It defiantly struck a chord with me because I have been evaluating my life lately, the past year and what I want to do in the future.

It has been a very hard year for me. A year I think I will always remember and look back on. The saying that you will learn to love your trials has never been truer than now. No one loves trials while going through them, i've prayed for endurance, strength and understanding. I have gone through all those and been guilty of having my woe as me moments wondering why this is happening to me. I have come to the conclusion that those trials though hard have been a blessing and I love them. I love my trials. I have been refined into someone I didn't know was possible. The Lord knew all along I needed them and has been my companion through this past year never leaving my side. I never knew what leaders meant when they said turn unto Jesus and he will take your burdens from you and make you light. I never had to use that part of the atonement until this past year. What an amazing part of the atonement that is. What a blessing it has been to learn and grow. To know of my Saviors love for me and to gain a better testimony of the atoning sacrifice my Savior made for me. I don't think I have ever been so alone and supported at the same time as I have this past year. Being away from my Family and support system for 2 years has been one of the most hard yet rewarding 2 years of my life. I have been blessed with an amazing support system within my family. I have the most loyal, loving, hardworking family who has become my best friends and number 1 fans. I want to thank them for being my support and lifting me up when I couldn't lift my self up. For the prayers and thoughts always being sent my way. You all are amazing!

I have never understood what heart break was in all forms until this past year. My heart has been broken for quite sometime and each day was a healing process and not until recently did it start to be whole again. I believe it was around Halloween and my Birthday did I truly sit there and think I am okay my heart doesn't need to hurt anymore. I whole heartedly believe you need to go through the whole process and not just shun your pain just to put on a happy face. Or fake it until you make it. Talking about what hurt me and processing my trials with those I trust has been a huge help and release for me. I love myself. I love who I have been and who I am becoming. I love that my trials have helped me in realizing this .I am human and of course would not want to go through the hurt i've gone through again but I am grateful for the understanding it has given me.

"Look Not Behind Thee" this is my motto for the new year. I have spent too much time this year dwelling in the past. What could of been? What if I said or did that, would things be different? What if I was this type of person would people like me more? Wondering and dwelling has left me heart broken even more so than I was and left me confused as to who I was and who I should be. As the new year begins I am no longer looking in the past. This is it no more regrets or dwelling on the past no more trying to control my life. This is me letting go and awaiting what the future holds with an open mind. It won't be easy to do this but it is my Goal to make it happen. I want to be the person I know the Lord see's in me. I want each day to be the first day of my future and always accomplish whats thrown at me. I know I can do it its only me that's stopping myself from becoming a better person. I won't let my insecurities or people get me down. I am starting a new year and a new me, but this time I am more determined than ever to make it happen. As this being my journal entry for me to always remember it has felt good to let it all out and start fresh and work towards a better future :)

I love myself! I love my trials! I love my Savior!
Bring on 2011!

Help!!!!!!

Somehow my editing stuff got screwed up and it wont let me change my background or title or picture or anything all it will let me do is fiddle with the template...im going crazy please help!!!

New beginnings

Where to start...I haven't blogged in awhile. I just haven't wanted to. Nothing was new sure stories here and there but life has become mundane to me but alas Ive come back to the blogging world for a tiny update.

1.I got a job. I have been home since June and have been searching relentlessly for a job. Some may call me crazy but I didn't just want any job to fill the gap until I found the perfect one. Night after night and every opportunity of fasting I finally got a great job! I don't regret being picky. I work at Habit Salon. I have wanted to be in a salon for forever! Right now it is part time and I'm okay with that. I assist a stylist there and honestly for only being there 4 days I have already learned so much and enjoy being at work.

2.This may not be big for some but for me it is. I have MY OWN ROOM. You may chuckle I do too when I tell my sap story. Growing up I always shared a room with Alyssa my younger sister and finally when I was 18 got my own room for about a year before I moved away and then shared for 2 years and when I moved home I had to share until the basement was renovated and finally I have my own room! I am enjoying decorating it and putting the finishing touches on it.

3. Dating sucks. Simple as that. Men don't know how to treat girls. I don't want to be your cuddle buddy or midnight call. Trust me your ego will dwindle if you try. I'm fine with the saying whatever happens will happen and ill take it one day at a time but come one guys Call me up ask me on a date get to know me don't play coy and try and "hangout" for as long as you can. Ill put you in the friend category.

For now that is all I can muster into a post Maybe next time ill have pictures of other adventures :)!

Vacay

My family and I had the opportunity for a weekend vacay to San Diego over the 4th. The pictures are out of order and I stole all of them :)

On the 4th before fireworks we went to Gaslamp District to walk around and window shop

Shay and Harlo are bffs. Whenever Lo is around Shay has to hold her and love on her.

On Saturday these 2 love birds got Engaged :)

Following the engagement we made Hobo dinners and there was a firework show

I just had to post this picture I just Love the little girl!!

And finally the beginning of the trip we went to LA. This isn't as half as bad as it usually is there. I picked up some new flip flops and a way cute purse!! Over all the trip was fabulous and the last day since I was the last child around I got to go to Sea World which was tons of fun!

Still looking for a job if anyone knows of anything please!!!

Oh hey...

Its me Stephanie. I have been horrible at blogging but life has been busy for once! For those of you that don't know...drum roll...I moved back home to MESA FOR GOOD! No more Utah. My mama came up packed up my car while I was working my last day and then we headed out...after breaking down in the middle of nowhere and doing jumping jacks to wake us up we got home :) Right when I got home I was on the road again heading to California for a week to beach camp with the fam. I have been home a week now visiting friends, making new friends, loving family time and looking for a job(eyes peeled people..me need job!). Its good being home the familiarity is comforting.

Stay tuned for my new adventures!!