Tuesday, August 2, 2011

Food for Thought

I am a thinker. I am constantly thinking of how to better myself, what needs to be done, lists upon lists, dreams, fears....everything. As I was texting my sister tonight I thought id share my most recent thoughts with her and I wanted to write them down for myself to remember. A lot of my life I have been afraid to be who I am and accept who I am. I didn't realize the strength and determination I had in myself until these past few years. I was telling my sister about a weakness of mine that I have overcome. For a long time when I dated I hid who I liked or was wishy washy because I was afraid of being judged. I've learned from that weakness by letting someone in and how amazing it feels to accept that part of my life. I've learned from dating who I am and who I want to be. This is exactly what I said to my sister...

"The more I am alone the more I accept myself and don't sway on my standards. Im learning each day to be comfortable in my own skin and not be wrapped up in who I think I should be or how to meet unrealistic expectations. I am me. People love me for me so why shouldn't I"

I am not perfect and don't always think this way but it is moments like this that I know what love is. I find my own beauty and relish in it just for a moment. For those hard days I know I will come upon remember how blessed your are and beautiful.