A Special Night

I had the opportunity to go through the Mesa, Arizona Temple on August 18th. I was a ball full of nerves all day. Literally. I said multiple prayers offering everything I had just for a little peace. I wasn't nervous that I was making the wrong choice, but that something would go wrong or I would make a mistake in the Temple. It was such a surreal experience walking beyond the walls that have been a veil of the unknown for my whole life. To hand my recommend to the elderly gentlemen to go around the corner and see what everyone has been trying to prepare me for. It is restricted of me to talk about the Holiness that happens with in those walls, but I left that night with a thought of Heaven. That is what Heaven looks like. Busy brother and sisters doing Our Fathers work. Peace, Fulfillment, Grace, Glory and a Purpose.

I am so very thankful to have had my mom with me every step of the way. She was my saving grace. She was so patient and encouraging of me. There was a special sister there also that brought so much warmth and the Holy Spirit to my first time there. I wish I could remember her name, but I don't. She was an elderly lady shorter then me with a thin frame and a cute pixie cut. She had the biggest smile with the warmest heart. She repeatedly told me how special this was for me and how proud she was of me. I am tearing up at the thought of her. To have a complete stranger tell you she is proud of you is such a reward. I was so blessed to have her by my side. She brought peace to that process and a knowledge that I was being blessed for my choices.

I had such a great spiritual experience while I was with her. I know with out a doubt that the Temple is a sacred place and a refuge from the world. I went on to finish the process feeling on cloud 9 until the sweet temple workers lost my Fiance. I just sat there with a smile on while screaming inside. I had one gentlemen tell me how great it was to see me smiling amidst the turmoil. Secretly I was screaming in my head. Eventually they tracked him down after having to go to the Temple President for some help. They put him in the wrong session since ours had been moved from lack of room for our family. It was so great to see his face and to have him by my side. The rest of the time spent I probably had a looked that could kill. My nerves were back after that experience. Family, friends and advisers suggest that you pay attention to the feeling not the learning your first time. Easier said then done. Over all though the experience was amazing. I wish I could do it all over again.

After the Temple we went to my future sister in laws house to go swimming and eat food. Everyone was pretty exhausted but im grateful they pushed through it to make my night full of family and love. Jeff and I took off after a while to spend some time with each other and to share our Patriarticle Blessing with one another. I am so grateful that we got to experience that together. He is a special man and I am grateful he took me through the Temple and is a worthy Priesthood holder for our family.